cermin - bagian 2

aku adalah engkau
engkau adalah aku
kananku adalah kirimu
kiriku adalah kananmu
sakitku adalah senangmu
senangku adalah sakitmu

(dedicated to my twinsoul)

langit Jakarta jam 5.30 pagi

indah... huhuy...
gue kadang suka heran sama orang2 yg mengeluh Jakarta macet, banjir, ga indah, nyebelin, dll. ntah gue yang kelewat cinta sama kota ini sampe ga bisa liat kejelekannya, atau emang hal2 kayak gitu wajar terjadi di kota sebesar ini. Batam yang sekecil itu aja bisa macet kok apa lagi Jakarta. kalo ngga mau macet pada tingal di desa aja sana, jangan tinggal di Jakarta.
hihihi... kejem ya gue. EMANG!

tadi pagi jam segitu gue udah di jalan karena si Tante mo meeting di Percetakan Negara jam 8 nanti. dengan gagah berani jam 5 kurang kita mandi lalu jam 5.20 cabut. di tol ngeliat langit Jakarta nan indah tea...

weekend ini akan jadi weekend yang menyenangkan. Sabtu mo nengokin Febby di RS PGI Cikini. sorenya ke Citos ketemu anak2 PRC. hari Minggu mo santai2 di kos. malamnya ada hot date, uhuy uhuy!!! jam 23.15 waktu setempat penghuni QuantumSpirit mengheningkan cipta bersama.

hmmm.. kangen tafakur bareng Bapak...

As the web issues out of the spider
And is withdrawn, as plants sprout from the earth,
As hair grows from the body, even so,
The sages say, this universe springs from
The deathless Self, the source of life.

The deathless Self meditated upon Himself and projected the universe
As evolutionary energy.
From this energy developed life, mind,
The elements, and the world of karma,
Which is enchained by cause and effect.

-Mundaka Upanishad

Quando, Quando, Quando

(Michael Buble feat Nelly Furtado)

Tell me when will you be mine
Tell me quando quando quando
We can share a love divine
Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me
Tell me quando quando quando
You mean happiness to me
Oh my love please tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Whoa lover tell me when
Oh darling tell me when
Oh come on tell me when
Yea tell me when

When you worship, you are aware of your separateness from God; you are the subject and he is the object. The more you worship, the more you acquire this sense of separateness from God. Union with God comes when this sense of your separateness from God is stripped away.

-Qushayri, "Risalah"

QS 14:7 ~ Dan (ingatlah juga), tatkala Tuhanmu memaklumkan; "Sesungguhnya jika kamu bersyukur, pasti Kami akan menambah (ni'mat) kepadamu, dan jika kamu mengingkari (ni'mat-Ku), maka sesungguhnya azab-Ku sangat pedih"

protes mulu sih...

daftar nomor plat

Jawa dan Madura
A = Banten, kecuali Tangerang kota dan kabupaten
B = Jakarta, Tangerang, Bekasi dan Depok
D = Bandung kota dan kabupaten
E = ex Karesidenan Cirebon
F = ex Karesidenan Bogor kecuali Depok
G = ex Karesidenan Pekalongan
H = ex Karesidenan Semarang
K = ex Karesidenan Pati
L = ex Karesidenan Surabaya
M = ex Karesidenan Madura
N = ex Karesidenan Malang
P = ex Karesidenan Besuki
R = ex Karesidenan Banyumas
S = Bojonegoro, Lamongan, Tuban, Jombang
T = Karawang
W = Gresik, Sidoarjo, Mojokerto
Z = Priangan Timur: Tasikmalaya, Garut, Ciamis, Kota Banjar, dan Sumedang

AA = ex Karesidenan Kedu
AB = ex Karesidenan Yogyakarta atau DIY
AD = ex Karesidenan Surakarta
AE = ex Karesidenan Madiun
AG = ex Karesidenan Kediri


Sumatra
BA = Sumatra Barat
BB = Sumatra Utara bagian selatan
BD = Bengkulu
BE = Lampung
BG = Sumatra Selatan
BH = Jambi
BL = Nanggroe Aceh Darussalaam
BK = Sumatra Utara bagian utara
BM = Riau
BN = Bangka-Belitung


Kalimantan
DA = Kalimantan Selatan
KB = Kalimantan Barat
KT = Kalimantan Timur
KH = Kalimantan Tengah


Sulawesi
DB = Sulawesi Utara
DD = Sulawesi Selatan, Sulawesi Barat
DL = Sangihe dan pulau-pulaunya
DM = Gorontalo
DN = Sulawesi Tengah


Maluku dan Papua
DE = Maluku Selatan
DG = Maluku Utara
DS = Papua (Barat)


Nusa Tenggara
DH = Timor (Barat)
DK = Bali
DR = Lombok
EA = Sumbawa
EB = Flores
ED = Sumba

this crazy world we live in

bener2 lucu dan kocak. sepanjang pagi ini gue ketawa karena 2 fenomena yang terjadi sama gue. input sama, output beda. variable di dalam proses ada yang beda, menyebabkan output beda. hanya karena 1 variable bernilai gengsi, proses dan output jadi beda. bener2 kocak!

do you believe in dreams? those things happen while you're sleeping. i do.

lagu yang mengakhiri perselingkuhanku (supposedly)

aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya yang kini hadir di antara kita
namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu yang selama ini temani hidupku

maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
maafkan diriku sepenuh hatimu
seandainya bila ku bisa memilih...

kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya
mungkin semua takkan seperti ini
dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku
membawa aku dalam kehancuran

(Demi Waktu - Ungu)

update:
lagu ini gue hapus dari playlist dan SD card gue pagi ini (20/04/06). biar gue ga manja dan membenarkan perselingkuhan gue :D
makasih Bapak untuk doa dan minumannya tadi malem. Hani sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaang sama Bapak :)

(should i? should i not?)

i was as wrong as i could be to let you get away from me
i regret that day for as long as i'm living
but now that i've come to see The Light
all i wanna do is make things right
so just say the word and tell me that i'm forgiven

you and me we're gonna be better than we were before
i loved you then but now i intend to open up and love you even more
this time you can be sure

i'll never gonna let you goo
i'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
gonna try and make up for the times i hurt you so
gonna hold your body close to mine
from this day on we're gonna be together
i swear this time i'll never gonna let you go

looking back now it seems so clear
i had it all when you were here
you gave it all and i took it for granted
but if there's some feelings left in you
some flicker of love would still shine thru
let's talk it out
let's talk about second chances

wait and see it's gonna be sweeter than it was before
i gave some then but now i intend to dedicate myself to even more
this time you can be sure

i'll never gonna let you goo
i'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
gonna try and make up for the times i hurt you so
gonna hold your body close to mine
from this day on we're gonna be together
i swear this time i'll never gonna let you go

but if you'll just say you want me too i'll...
never gonna let you goo
i'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
gonna try and make up for the times i hurt you so
gonna hold your body close to mine
from this day on we're gonna be together
i swear this time i'll never gonna let you go


(ntah lagunya siapa, yang jelas 80s)

"When you practice generosity, Subhuti, you should not rely on any object to be the cause of your generosity. You should not rely on words, for they are merely labels. If you practice generosity without relying on causes or labels, you cannot conceive of the happiness. Subhuti, do you think that the space in the east can be measured?"

"No, Honored One."

"Can the space in the west, the north, or the south, or up above or down below be measured?"

"No, Honored One."

"In the same way, Subhuti, if you do not rely on any concept when practicing generosity, the happiness that results is as immeasurable as space."


-Diamond Sutra

accepting my fear

Do not lose hope in Allah, for He is the Creator. He will create
another way for you. Do not flee from your trials; patience in
adversity is the foundation of all virtue, of compassion and
sainthood. Patience is the foundation, and without a sound foundation
you cannot build a monument.

-Sheikh Abdul Qadir Jillani, "Fayuz E Yazdani"

--
keep shining! :)
-hani-

new task

the task today is to overcome our own resistance and evolve into
higher forms of ourselves.

--
keep shining! :)
-hani-

Compassion is the willingness to play in the field of dreams even
though you are awake.

-Matthew Flickstein, "Swallowing the River Ganges"

--
keep shining! :)
-hani-

my darling

i can't get enough of your love, baby..

(miss my soulmates: Tante, mas Dodi, Diana, Harso, Niken)

--
keep shining! :)
-hani-

The laws of life are five:
Nonviolence,
Truthfulness,
Integrity,
Chastity,
Nonattachment.

These laws are universal. Unaffected by time, place, birth, or circumstance, together they constitute the "Great Law of Life."

-The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali, 2:30-31

Be fearless and pure; never waver in your determination or your dedication to the spiritual life. Give freely. Be self-controlled, sincere, truthful, loving, and full of the desire to serve. Realize the truth of the scriptures; learn to be detached and to take joy in renunciation. Do not get angry or harm any living creature, but be compassionate and gentle; show good will to all. Cultivate vigor, patience, will, purity; avoid malice and pride. Then, Arjuna, you will achieve your divine destiny.

-Bhagavad Gita 16:1-3

roller coaster weekend

keenakan naik roller coaster sampe pusing, mual, muak, marah2, kesenengan, sakit perut. gila gila gilaaaaa....

loong weekend..

i kinda miss him now. hm, well, i do. kenapa ya suka tau2 muncul,
meronta2, trus hilang. kenapa ga constantly feel it. karena yang kekal
memang hanya perubahan? isn't that 'sad', that the mix of 2
oppositions will take you to the Zero Zone. ya iyalah ya, 1 + -1 = 0.
just like God (or Whatever you wanna call Him/Her/It/Them).

and this morning i lost my appetite for an adventure i planned
yesterday. sorry buddy to leave you hanging. can't do it. can't betray
myself. i just wanna get out off my little dark circle. it's nice
when you were around. time to move on.

--
keep shining! :)
-hani-

lagu untuk yang lagi males solat

maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu

When God’s decree becomes your pleasure,
you become a willing slave,
not because of burdening yourself,
not on account of recompense,
but by virtue of the nature now so pure
that wherever divine edict may take you,
living and dying will appear the same.
You live for God, not for riches;
you die for God, not from fear or pain.


-Rumi, “Mathnawi”

some people are made for each other
some people can love one another for life
some people can hold it together
each thru all kinds of weather
how bout us me?

stupidity and blindess

I urge you not to throw away time, for it's swift as an arrow, fast as a stream. Distraction is entirely due to lack of concentration; stupidity and blindness are caused by lack of true knowledge.

-Yung-Ming, "Five Houses of Zen"

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Congratulations! You made it through Jaim-Free Month!
Please be patient on the next level. More and more challenges to come.
You're getting closer ;-)

--
keep shining! :)
-hani-