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re-defining preferences

i need someone to care for me wholeheartedly.
someone i can turn to anytime i need him.
someone to talk to when it's something not important.
someone i can sit by in silence.
someone willingly share his life with me.
someone not afraid to confess his feelings.
someone dare to look stupid in front of me.
someone i can trust to ride this roller-coaster of Life with me.




is he?


...........


if you love somebody, set them free.
i guess i must let you go, mas... i'm no good for you. i'm sorry.

gue pasti pulang bulan depan

yes!!!
even if ga ada yg bayar utang :P ato side job gue duitnya ga keluar juga, gue insya Allah tetep pulang. bokap ngajak lebaranan ntah dimana \:d/
perlu kamera nih... ayo dong pada bayar utang!!!! :P

=))

Lukman dodol. log gue ama dia hari Jumat dipublish di blognya. dodoooooollll...

btw, last weekend turned out to be OK. jalan2 ma bokap+Anto ke Pasaraya dan Gramed. beli buku hwihihihi... senangnya... udah lama gue ga beli buku.

Love Is A Wonderful Thing

Birds fly, they don't think twice
They simply spread their wings
The sun shines, it don't ask why
Or what the whole thing means

The same applies to you and I
We never question that
So good, it's just understood
Ain't no conjecture
Just a matter of fact

Love is a wonderful thing
Make ya smile through the pouring rain
Love is a wonderful thing
I'll say it again and again
Turn your world into one sweet dream
Take your heart and make it sing
Love, love is a wonderful thing

The only thing a river knows
Is runnin' to the sea
And every spring when a flower grows
It happens naturally

The same magic when you're in my arms
No logic can define
Don't know why, just feels so right
I only know it happens every time

Lovesong

Whenever I’m alone with you you make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I’m alone with you you make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I’m alone with you you make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I’m alone with you you make me feel like I am fun again

However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I’m alone with you you make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I’m alone with you you make me feel like I am clean again

LOVESONG BY THE CURE

however far away, i will always love you...
however long i stay, i will always love you...
whatever words they say, i will always love you...
i will always love you

kepepet

nyokap gue kumat. biasalah, Anti ga mo makan jadi dia feeling hopeless. terus merembet kemana2. ntar tu anak gue bawa ke Jakarta juga deh. biar gue dibilang kejam. dulu juga ortu gue kejam dong maksa gue pindah ke Balikpapan dan Batam walo gue nentang keras? ya ga? kok sekarang jadi gue yang kejam karena bawa anak gue ke Jakarta? lucu!

Today's Forecast

Keep your head steady, because some of your recently conceived plans may need a little adjusting to hit the target. Don't panic -- not only is it unnecessary, but it could just make things far worse than they actually are

Shoulda Woulda Coulda

People say that together we were both sides of the same coin
That we would shine like Venus in a clear night sky
We thought our love could overcome the circumstances
But my ambition wouldn't allow for compromise

I could see in the distance all the dreams that were clear to me
Every choice that I had to make left you on your own
Somehow the road we started down had split asunder
Too late to realise how far apart we'd grown

How I wish I, wish I'd done a little bit more
Now " Shoulda woulda coulda," means I'm out of time
Coz "Shoulda woulda coulda", can't change your mind
And I wonder, wonder, wonder what I'm gonna do
"Shoulda woulda coulda" are the last words of a fool

People ask how it feels to live the kind of life others dream about
I tell them everybody gotta face their highs and their lows
And in my life there's a love that I put aside
Cause I was busy loving something else
So for every little thing you hold on to, you've got to let something else go

Fool if I would now forsake the opportunities are fate
I know I'm right where I belong
But sometimes when I'm not that strong I..

Strong

My breath smells of a thousand fags
And when I'm drunk I dance like me Dad
I've started to dress a bit like him

Early morning when I wake up
I look like Kiss but without the make up
And that's a good line to take it to
The bridge

And you know and you know
Cos my life's a mess
And I'm trying to grow so before
I'm old I'll confess
You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song my song

My bed's full of takeaways and fantasies
Of easy lays
The pause button's broke on my video
And is this real cos I feel fake
Oprah Winfrey Ricki Lake
Teach me things I don't need to know

And you know and you know
Cos my life's a mess
And it's starting to show so before
I'm old I'll confess
You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song my song

If I did it all again I'd be a nun
The rain was never cold when I was young
I'm still young we're still young
Life's too short to be afraid
Step inside the sun

And you know and you know
Cos my life's a mess
And I'm trying to grow

And you know and you know
Cos my life's a mess
And I'm trying to grow

And you know and you know
Cos my life's a mess
And I'm trying to grow

You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song my song

You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song my song

Life's too short to be afraid
So take a pill to numb the pain
You don't have to take the blame

LET IT BE

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be...
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be...
Let it be, let it be...
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be...

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be...
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be...
Let it be, let it be...
There will be an answer, let it be...

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be...
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.


***

thanks Mother Mary for stopping by my room last night. it gave me a big relieve from all this pain and burden...

Hey Jude!

Hey jude, don’t make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

Hey jude, don’t be afraid
You were made to go out and get her
The minute you let her under your skin
Then you begin to make it better

And anytime you feel the pain, hey jude, refrain
Don’t carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it’s a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder

Hey jude, don’t let me down
You have found her, now go and get her
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

So let it out and let it in, hey jude, begin
You’re waiting for someone to perform with
And don’t you know that it’s just you, hey jude, you’ll do
The movement you need is on your shoulder

Hey jude, don’t make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her under your skin
Then you’ll begin to make it
Better better better better better better oh

Na na na na na ,na na na, hey jude...

The Road Less Travelled

Submitted by Orlando Belisle

I'm writing to you about the Matrix FAQ that asks What does Trinity mean when she says "You've been down there, Neo. You already know that road. You know exactly where it ends. And I know that's not where you want to be."

When I saw this section of the movie, I realized that there was something symbolic. In it, Neo has been picked up by a group of people who know Morpheus, the man Neo wishes to meet, and they drive him over to where he is. As they were riding down, they stopped the car and gave Neo a choice: Either join them or leave. With that, Neo decided to forget about the whole thing and go home. Just when he was ready to get out of the car, Trinity stops him, and tells him that he should reconsider. When asked why, she responded to him, saying, "You've been down there, Neo. You already know that road. You know exactly where it ends. And I know that's not where you want to be." As she is talking, Neo notices a smooth, clean, wide road in front of him. It is spotless from the rain. No one or nothing is there to get in his way. However, from a distance, the road begins to darken, and you are not able to see what is there. What could that mean? After listening to what she had to say, Neo decided to stay with them.

This scene is very important, not only to the movie, but life, itself. This road symbolizes the wide road and the road less traveled, AKA “The narrow road”. As I said in the last paragraph: Neo saw a road that was nice and clean, but dark as the road went further. A lot of us have gone down that road, and maybe still are. When you decide to not pay for your bills, stand up to someone who has been giving you trouble, or even do you homework, then you are taking the wide road, because you refuse to go through all that trouble and worry. But as that road begins to darken, you will begin to see the consequences that come ahead: If you had not paid your bills, something will be taken away (Water will shut off, if you hadn’t paid for your water bill). If you refuse to stand up to that person, then he or she will continue to give you trouble. If you decide to not do your homework, then you fail the assignment (or fail the class, if you had not done any).

These rules are just as similar as they are in The Matrix: Neo has always been on that smooth, clean road, and Trinity tries to tell him that as many times as he has gone down there, it was unable to give him the answers he was looking for. He knows that Morpheus can give him the answer, but it will not be easy. However, Neo knows that it is the only way. If he were to back out now, he would have wondered “What if…”, or “Maybe I should have…”; or anything related to that matter. It was up to Trinity to get Neo to open his eyes and understand the truth, or else he would have regretted it, in the long run.

We all take that road, sometimes, in the hopes that the problem will go away, or possibly come to us, without any struggle. The odds of that are slim, but we hope for it, anyway. But no matter how many times we try to trick ourselves into believing that the best will come without trying, we will only witness the worst. If we can stop denying the fact that life is not always easy and that we have to sometimes give 110%, maybe then we can become more civilized with ourselves. Neo knew the truth, he knew what was out there, and he knew that was not where he wanted to be.

ngulik2 The Matrix trilogy

~ The Architect tells Neo he will need to choose 7 males and 16 females to rebuild Zion. This is likely a reference to Genesis 7:16, 'The animals going in were male and female of every living thing'. The total of 23 people could be a nod to human DNA, which contains 23 pairs of chromosomes.

11 - 19 - 44

something new - Mother Mary - balancing spiritual and physical

note:
19:22-28
B 4251 NG - vespa
B 8108 NG - vios (altis ato camry?) hitam

tadi pagi di bis ada cowok ngasi tempat duduknya buat gue. waks... where do we live? :)   thanks for your kindness, whoever you are :)   i know Heaven is smiling down at me (again) :)

Understand, God, ** censored **, does not ever destroy. The workings of the photon belt are natural. It is man that determines the destruction, and brings it upon himself by his behavior as a group.

tepat!

From: nungki
To: lightuponlight@yaho....
Date: Sep 5, 2005 4:05 PM
Subject: [lightuponlight] Meneropong dari ketinggian........(sok tau deh gue).....


Kembali gundah gulana dan bermasalah untuk hal remeh yang kurang dapat
dipahami oleh orang lain, tapi menurut gue itu hal penting.
Tak jua bisa memahami dengan sempurna.
Upaya yang telah gue coba dari berbulan-bulan lalu, sepertinya
bertepuk sebelah tangan.

Ini bukan soal benar atau salah.
Bukan soal hitam atau putih.
Dan bukan perkara menang atau kalah.
Ini hanya soal memahami dan berkomitmen.

Tak semudah mengetik ternyata.
Ini lebih dari sekedar merendahkan hati untuk memahami.
Bukan sekedar mencintai itu berarti menerima apa adanya.
Bukan sekedar menerima dan mengerti.
Ini lebih dari itu.
Andai dia bisa tahu...

Sulit buat gue menyampaikan dengan bahasa yang lebih sempurna.
Atau, mengkomunikasikan dengan bahasa yang lebih dewasa.
Sangat sulit buat gue melompat ke sepuluh jenjang anak tangga buat hal
yang tidak sederhana itu.
Melangkah di jalan yang datar saja bisa kelelahan, apalagi mendaki?!
Andai dia (bisa) tahu...

Tak sekali dua ini terjadi.
Dan, tak sekali dua juga pembahasan alot itu musti ada.
Dan, tak sekali dua terulang lagi.
Ini bukan tidak mempercayai, kog.
Hanya sesederhana yang gue harapkan.

Tapi, memang sangat sulit untuk menyatukan dua kepala dan dua hati
yang berbeda.

Ah, andai dia (bisa) tahu...

Bukan gue tidak percaya, bukan gue curiga.
Bukan gue terlalu manja atau terlalu mengekang.
Bukan gue selalu ingin membagi waktu berdua dan menguasai waktu.
Bukan gue egois tak memahami dia dan memaksakan kehendak.

Bukan, ini bukan tentang gue.
Bukan, ini bukan tentang dia.
Dan, ini bukan kami atau kita.

Ini tentang dua kepala dan dua hati yang susah dipertemukan.
Andai dia (bisa) tahu, apa yang gue harapkan.

I guarantee it won't be easy.
I guarantee that at one point or another, one of us is going to want to leave.
But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine,
I am going to regret it for the rest of my life.
Because I know in my heart, you are the only one for me.

(Runaway Bride)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

sebel banget! kok gue ga bisa nangis sih!!!!!
udah nyesek banget tapi ga bisa nangis juga. keluarnya cuma seencrit2, ga tuntas.
i just noticed akhir2 ini gue masukin apapun omongan orang ke dalam ati. efeknya jadi pengen diem. bukan cari aman, tapi belajar memperbaiki diri.

duh.. malu gue ngomong gitu. udah berkali2 gue bilang ke dia gue akan belajar jadi lebih baik. ternyata... :( kayaknya sekarang malah gue tambah parah deh :((
blame it on ME, not him or other people around me.

dah ah diem aja...
inget QS 81:08!!!!!