Tunjukkan Padaku (Sheila on 7)

tenangkan resahku saat langkahku terasa berat
teduhkan jiwaku saat matahari bersinar terlalu pijar
karena dirimu satu-satunya yang kuandalkan
saat diriku tak mampu berdiri di sini
sendiri

ceritakan sayang.. hari-hari yang tlah kau lalui
katakanlah sayang.. semua hal yang kaubenci dari diriku
cobalah cobalah tuk mengerti keadaan ini
aku rapuh saat kau tinggalkan

tunjukkan padaku kau selalu mencintaiku
jadilah pelindung bagi sayapku
aku berjanji aku berjanji selalu menemani langkahmu
dalam setiap hela nafasmu

bangunkan tidurku bila kau terjaga lebih dulu
bergegaslah sayang... kita isi makna indahnya hari ini
cobalah cobalah tuk mengerti keadaan ini
aku rapuh saat kau tinggalkan


**

Tuhan... aku ga sanggup kayak begini terus :(
aku ga tau mesti gimana lagi :(
tolongin doooooongggg..... biarin dibilang cengeng, cengeng deh. ayo dong turun tangan... pleaseeeee??? capek nih kayak gini...

lagi bego

(kayak pernah pinter aja)
i wonder how love can be such a painful experience? is it me?
kenapa ya...
gue sayang dia, tapi tiap inget dia, inget hal2 nyenengin tentang dia, kok rasanya sakit? karena gue ngarep? ngarep untuk ketemu, untuk bisa ngerasain itu lagi, ato apa? there must be something wrong with me, i know it.

aaaaaahhh... kenapa sih gue jadi kayak gini? kenapa sih gueeee??? kayaknya gue mesti DQ deh ntar.

Here, There And Everywhere (The Beatles)

To lead a better life I need my love to be here...

Here, making each day of the year
Changing my life with a wave of her hand
Nobody can deny that there's something there

There, running my hands through her hair
Both of us thinking how good it can be
Someone is speaking but she doesn't know he's there

I want her everywhere and if she's beside me
I know I need never care
But to love her is to need her everywhere
Knowing that love is to share

Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there

I want her everywhere and if she's beside me
I know I need never care
But to love her is to need her everywhere
Knowing that love is to share

Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there

To be there and everywhere
Here, there and everywhere

huhuhuhu

kangen banget sama Anti :(

if i ain't got YOU

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what’s within
And I’ve been there before
But that life’s a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love 'em
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
no one to share
no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, you, you
Some people want it all
but I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, yeah

If I aint got you with me baby

oh so nothing in this whole
wide world dont mean a thing

If I aint got you with me baby

my life lately

2 hari yang lalu
~ Shampoo = bersihin kepala. Clear --> Lifebuoy = bersihin kepala supaya ga tenggelam.
~ Deterjen = bersihin baju. You knowlah… syariat.
~ Pembersih kamar mandi = bersihin diri gue keseluruhan.

DAPAT:
~ soft copy Bhagavad Gita versi asli dan Inggris.
~ soft copy Qur’an Suci versi Inggris. YIPPY!!!
~ baanyaaak literatur tentang yoga. Asik asik asik...

Kemarin pagi
~ Walking away (Craig David) --> you should’ve been more wise, babe..
~ Roland telfon ngasi tau Qur’an Suci versi Indonesia udah terbit lagi. Dia pesen 2 buat dia dan gue. Thank you bro! That’s so nice of you.


Tadi malam
** Topik mas HS: sholat sebagai sarana mi’raj.
~ How to do it correctly to get into The Light.
~ Kenapa dulu di awal ‘tawar-menawar’ jumlah rakaat sholat dikasih 50 rakaat sama Allah.

He also gave answer to his previous ‘homework’ around a month ago concerning which path Spirit uses to get into a human body (ie janin) in the beginning of its creation.

** “Kamu adalah apa yang kamu pikirkan,” kata mas DS. Ngomongnya sambil senyum penuh arti.
** Otak yang terus bekerja (karena kemelekatannya terhadap dunia materi) menghambat perjalanan ruh menuju kematian. Tuhan memberi tanda2 kematian supaya kita pelan2 mulai menghilangkan kemelekatan itu dan benar2 siap pulang pada saatnya.


Tadi pagi
~ Parfum wangi melati = sifat keibuan = feminin = jasmani.
~ Sebel ama motor eh malah ketemu Putu (naik motor) --> kadang hal2 yang kita benci/ga suka/sebelin justru menolong kita di saat sulit.

Maafkan

Kasih sudah ku akui
semua salahku padaMu
beri aku kesempatan
untuk buktikan cinta setia padaMu lagi

ooh maaf maafkan diriku
yang telah membuat hatiMu terluka
hanya Kau Cintaku
ku tak pernah fikir
tuk pergi dari Mu
walau hanya sekejap saja

jangan pernah Kau berfikir
untuk tinggalkan diriku
beri aku kesempatan
untuk buktikan cinta setia padamu lagi

kan kupeluk diriMu
takkan kulepas lagi
untuk buktikan cintaku
kan kuhapus lukaMu
akhiri semua ini
hanya untukMu ooohhh

ooh janjiku janjiku padaMu
tuk mencintaiMu sekali dalam hidupku
Kasihku dengarkan
hanya Engkau yang bisa
temani hidup ini
sampai akhir usia kita

(Rio Febrian)

song of last night - 2

when i'm lost in the rain
in Your Eyes i know i'll find The Light to light my way
when I'm scared, losing ground
when my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around
and when i'm down You're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all You've got

for a Shield from the storm
for a Friend, for a Love to keep me safe and warm
i turn to You
for the Strength to be strong
for the Will to carry on
for everything You do
for everything that's True
i turn to You

when i lose the will to win
i just reach for You
and i can reach the Sky again
i can do anything
'cause Your Love is so Amazing
'cause Your Love inspires me
and when i need a friend
You're always on my side
giving me Faith
taking me through the Night

for the Arms to be my Shelter through all the rain
for Truth that will never change
for Someone to lean on
for a Heart i can rely on through anything
for The One who i can run to
i turn to You

song of last night

for all those times You stood by me
for all The Truth that You made me see
for all The Joy You brought to my life
for all the wrong that You made right
for every Dream You made come true
for all The Love i found in You
i'll be forever Thankful, Baby
You're the one who held me up never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my Strength when i was weak
You were my Voice when i couldn't speak
You were my Eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me Faith 'coz You believed
i'm everything i am because You loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand i could touch The Sky
i lost my faith, You gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and i stood tall
i had Your Love i had it all
i'm grateful for each day You gave me
maybe i don't love that much but i know this much is true
i was blessed because i was loved by You

You were my Strength when i was weak
You were my Voice when i couldn't speak
You were my Eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me Faith 'coz You believed
i'm everything i am because You loved me

You were always there for me
The Tender Wind that carried me
a Light in the dark shining Your Love into my life
You've been my Inspiration
through the lies you were The Truth
my world is a better place because of You

You were my Strength when i was weak
You were my Voice when i couldn't speak
You were my Eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me Faith 'coz You believed
i'm everything i am because You loved me

(Celine Dion - Because You Loved me)

sesat ga sesat yang penting kentut

kemaren gue ga foto2 selama di Puncak. wah.. pertanda apa gerangan...

***
"Sunday Morning"

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning

***
i guess it's time getting to know my spiritual guide. kaget2 gue tadi malem. dasar penakut!

word

Test posting dari word. Ih masa fontnya times new roman sih.

all you need is love

There is someone special for everyone. Often there are two or three or even four. They come from different generations. They travel across oceans of time and the depths of heavenly dimensions to be with you again. They come from the other side, from heaven. They look different, but your heart knows them. Your heart has held them in arms like yours in the moon-filled deserts of Egypt and the ancient plains of Mongolia. You have ridden together in the armies of forgotten warrior-generals,
and you have lived together in the sand-covered caves of the Ancient Ones. You are bonded together throughout eternity, and you will never be alone.

Your head may interfere: "I do not know you." Your heart knows.

He takes your hand for the first time, and the memory of his touch transcends time and sends a jolt through every atom of your being. She looks into your eyes, and you see a soul companion across centuries. Your stomach turns upside down. Your arms are gooseflesh. Everything outside this moment loses its importance.

He may not recognize you, even though you have finally met again, even though you know him. You can feel the bond. You can see the potential, the future. But he does not. His fears, his intellect, his problems keep a veil over his heart's eyes. He does not let you help him sweep the veil aside. You mourn and grieve, and he moves on. Destiny can be so delicate.

When both recognize each other, no volcano could erupt with more passion. The energy released is tremendous.

Soul recognition may be immediate. A sudden feeling of familiarity, of knowing this new person at depths far beyond what the conscious mind could know. At depths usually reserved for the most intimate family members. Or even deeper than that. Intuitively knowing what to say, how they will react. A feeling of safety and a trust far greater than could be earned in only one day or one week or one month.

Soul recognition may be subtle and slow. A dawning of awareness as the veil is gently lifted. Not everyone is ready to see right away. There is a timing at work, and patience may be necessary for the one who sees first.

You may be awakened to the presence of your soul companion by a look, a dream, a memory, a feeling. You may be awakened by the touch of his hands or the kiss of her lips, and your soul is jolted back to life.

The touch that awakens may be that of your child, of a parent, of a sibling, or of a true friend. Or it may be your beloved, reaching across the centuries, to kiss you of her lips, and your soul is jolted back to life.

(by Brian L. Weiss, M.D.)

Duhai engkau sang dewi ciptaan raja
Dari langit kau turun ke dunia
Untuk jadi milikku
Jadi pendampingku selamanya

Dengarkanlah setiap kata yang terucap
Mengertilah karena hidup takkan semudah kau kira
Kau harus berlari mengejarnya

Ku takkan berhenti beri cinta dan rinduku
Sampai kau mengerti dan pahami semua yang kuberikan

Jangan kau pergi dariku
Bila waktuku sedikit untukmu
Setiap hembusan nafasku
Kulakukan yang terbaik untukmu

Duhai engkau sang dewi ciptaan raja
Mengertilah karena hidup takkan semudah kau kira
Kau harus berlari mengejarnya

Bila ku pergi tetaplah kau ada disini dan menanti

(Tic Band - Terbaik Untukmu)

He who loves has conquered the world...
and has no fear of losing anything...
coz true love is an act of total surrender...

reflects of the past

hiks...
abis baca posting gue kemarin2. ternyata gue udah ngulangin kesalahan ini berkali2 :(
sayangnya ga pernah selesai jadi ya kejadian terus :(
what to do ya... how to do it right?

here there and everywhere

cowok cakep bertebaran dimana2 tadi malem. tapi teuteup.. ga ada yang ngalahin pak dokterku. bukan gombal bukan sihir.
sampe kos ada sesuatu terselip di bawah pintu kamar. brosur foto pre wedding!

nnnnnngggg

speechless.
gue kok bego banget ya? heran deh :(

weekly updates

Rabu: ketemu Zaki dan mbak Chintya di PS, 6 pm. mungkin ke Thaha.
Kamis: jalan sama Ika, tetangga-yang-bulan-depan-ga-jadi-tetangga-lagi.
Jumat: jogging di Senayan sama orang kantor. (akhirnya berguna juga sepatu baru gue) mungkin ke Thaha.
Sabtu: kerja bakti di kantor. MALES.
Minggu: arisan dan Ninna 7 bulanan.

FS' bulletin board of the day

notes:
> jawaban gue
=> jawaban Vay

From: VAY
Date: 8/9/2005 11:12:00 AM
Subject: Vokal & Konsonan Updates
Message:

A = Album Favorit?
> album foto Miranti

I = Ide tergila?
> nnnnggg...(nungging??)

U = Uang di dompet?
> ga punya dompet gituch loch. belom gajian juga :( internet kantor mati. apa lagi yang lebih apes daripada itu...
=> ada, ke bekasi nemenin ibu2 demo Kecantikan trus diculik ke RS Jakarta

E = Enak nggak sekolah di luar negeri?
> GA ENAK apalagi di singapur. ga dua kali deh.
=>enak klo dpt pacar,...

O = Orang tergila yang pernah lo temui?
> gue dong ;)
=> buener elu banget

Ka = Kapan terakhir main golf?
> pc game? ga pernah.

Ki = Kira2 lo dibenci nggak sama seseorang?
> benci sih ngga. sebel, pasti. ya kan? i know you lah...
=> Benci, benar2 cinta..

Ku = Kurang lebih, berapa kali dalam sehari lu makan es krim?
> kalo lagi ada bisa sampe 3x
=> maruk apa doyan yah??


Ke = Kemana lo malam minggu kemarin?
> di kos nongton final InDol.

Ko = Konfrontasi terakhir dengan seseorang?
> malem minggu itu juga :)) sebel! seenaknya aja nutup telfon. ga sopan tau.
=> Pasti si raden Gatot Ngoco..

Sa = Sampai kapan lo mau main internet?
> ampe pantat tepos, mata panas, jari2 kaku => udah bukan??

Shi = Shiapa orang yang lo rindukan saat ini?
> pak dokter
=> Dokter Cinta dr Jawa, kampoeng kober..

Su = Supaya bangun pagi, lo ngapain?
> melek dong! :P

Se = Sedang ngapain sekarang?
> nunggu kapan datangnya hari gajian...

So = Soal kepercayaan, siapa yg plg lo percaya?
> Myself

Ta = Tahun depan ada rencana menikah?
> taun ini ada. taun lalu juga ada. rencana doang kan? :P

Chi = Chinta adalah?
> Cinta! salah ketik tuh.

Tsu = Tsuka lagu apa sekarang?
> Lonely No More - Rob Thomas
=>No more lonely nights nya, paul Mc Cartney jg gak?

Te = Telah menikah berapa tahun?
> PENTING YA!
=>yg penting gak telat ngangkat..

To = Togel favorit bernomor berapa?
> heee?
=> 8

Na = Nama favorit untuk anak?
> Rizky

Ni = Nickname favorit?
> p**********k
=> bukan nya ...J***W?

Nu = Nuang minum pake tangan kanan atau kiri?
> ngaruh?
=>yg penting gak pake kaki

Ne = Nemu sesuatu yg menarik baru2ini?
> always. apalagi yang tadi malem itu. speechless daku dibuatnya...

No = Nolak atau ditolak, enakan yang mana?
> enakan me/diterima dong ah
=> ya enak jadian doonnkk..

Hi = Hitam atau Putih?
> putih
=> tp si tayang,kan hitam?

Fu = Full insanity, pendapat anda?
> so what?
=> its equals with KENIKMATAN

He = Hebatnya selebriti favorit anda?
> bisa nyanyi sambil gebukin drum

Ho = Hongkong and Hokkaido?
> holland bakery juga HO loh :P
=>Holland Bakery tuh HB tau'....

Ma = Malam ini ada rencana apa?
> ngulang yg tadi malem :D bego kan tadi malem ketakutan :P
=> hiii...ada putih...putih...

Mi = Minggu depan mau ngapain?
> mau2 guelah
=> seminar donk aahh..

Mu = Muatan di dalam tas?
> hp, kucing biru
=> plastik biru juga yah yg kotak kayak yg beli di gelael tebet

Me = Memimpikan siapa tadi malam?
> Rara dan Meta yang tak kunjung datang :((

Mo = Moralisme atau Rasionalisme?
> gue ga isme2an. hari gini...
=> iritisme bisa gak?

Ra = Radio atau Televisi?
> mp3

Ri = Ribut atau tenang?
> tergantung mood

Ru = Rumah atau apartemen?
> rumah di pinggir kota dengan halaman luas dan apartemen di tengah kota :))

Re = Rempah atau mentah?
> apanya?
=> mentah berdenyut....

Ro = Rolls Royce atau BMW?
> Mercy =)) (ketawa lo vay :P)
=> selera loe emang top...

Ya = Yahoo atau hotmail?
> GMAIL, one of internet's miracles

Yu = Yunani atau Paris?
> Yu Sri aja. masakannya enaks...
=> Yu DJUM lage ngetop noh di Jogja..

Yo = Yoyo atau frisbee?
> si yoyo... si yoyo... si yoyo... *gaya Miranti*

Wa = Waktu kecil kayak apa sih?
> kayak Miranti :D
=> kayak laki...hehehe...

Wo = World awareness?
> c'mon everyone WAKE UP!

Ng = Ng....Udah capek belom?
> belom. segitu doang tuh? yah...
=> NG....inisial kali yah??

how could

i be so stupid?
he be so insensitive?