how i remember you

If it's true from the start
That the names of those we love are written in our hearts
And we'll search 'til we find in this jungle of Confusion
Something that reminds us how we love each other
Then I think I've found the clue because I certain I remember you

Through my window I see how the seasons change like notes within some harmony
But the love in our eyes is an endless summer
Is a joy that magnifies each time we touch each other
And it feels like Deja Vu as my heart reveals how I remember you

Day after day I'm amazed how our love intensifies
In every way it resembles forever
Abandons us never

Like the sunlight that shines
Like the fragrance of the rose
No single word defines
We are tuned to the sound that displays Creation
That our lives revolve around and searching for each other
From a million hearts we choose
You remember me and I remember you

A chorus of sparrows in summer
Is how I remember you
The fire of maples in autumn
Is how I remember you
The Silence of snowfall in winter
Is how I remember you

***
ya ya i remember you... :)

everyone is moving..

1. Vivi, tetangga kos gue sejak masih di Flamboyan, akhir bulan ini
cabut dari kos dan pulang ke rumahnya karena dia dpt kerjaan baru yg
9-5 di Sudirman.

2. Martha, temen seperjuangan Vivi juga, rencananya mo balik ke
rumahnya jg stl kuliahnya selesai.

3. Niken, temen seperjuangan gue juga, beberapa bulan akan ditempatin
entah dimana. Bisa di Jambi, Batam ato Jakarta. Chance di Jakarta
tipis, katanya, karena yg dipegang divisinya Niken ada di 2 kota itu.

4. Mbak Party, temen seperjuangan naik 19 tiap pagi, juga mo pindah
kost krn disini ga ada parkiran.

5. Kalo Martha balik ke rumahnya, kemungkinan kak Retha, kakaknya yg
jg tetangga gue, juga bakal pindah kost.

6. Selasa besok hari terakhir Gema di kantor. Dia diterima di TransTV.

*update
7. Tyas tanggal 8 April nikah di Madiun. Minggu depannya di Balikpapan.

Well.. ga ada yang kekal kecuali perubahan...

Ntah kenapa gue ngerasa April ini something BIG (not just big) and
MAJOR will happen to me. It must be something really good :)

--
keep shining! :)
-hani-

beres-beres

Hani: gigi gue yg lagi dibenerin ada 2, yg depan (yg patah itu) dan kanan atas (bolong)
Hani: yg depan perawatannya lebih simple karena dia udah mati dan ga bermasalah
Hani: yg bolong itu yg ribet
Hani: yg lagi dirawat adalah saluran akar. sebelum kemaren koas yg nanganin gue cuma nemu 1 saluran akar. udah dibersihin dan dibentuk. rencananya kemaren itu mau diisi, lalu ditambal permanen
Hani: tapi rasanya kok sakit banget ya, kayak ada duri nyangkut di situ. kesenggol waktu ngunyah juga sakit. nah kemaren karena gue aduh2 mulu waktu tambal sementaranya dibuka, dia tanya ke dokter spesialis. terus sang spesialis meriksa. eh dia menemukan bahwa gigi gue itu akarnya DUA!
inggani: Oh iya terus masih ada akar ya
Hani: eh bukan akarnya ding, tapi salurannya
Hani: salurannya 2, dan menyatu di ujung. jadi keliatannya kayak cuma 1
inggani: Oh..Terus gimana
Hani: nah yg 1 ini kemaren dibersihin sampe gue nyut2an berat
inggani: Itu lazim apa nggak
Hani: lazim... bahkan ada yg 3
inggani: Oh..Gito..
Hani: koas gue itu seneng banget karena akhirnya dia dapet kasus akar ganda hihi
inggani: Hehehe dasar. Jadi kelinci pembelajaran
Hani: gue juga seneng karena kayaknya gue akan nemuin hal lain yg harus gue benerin dulu dan setelah itu masalah gue sama **** akan selesai
Hani: sakitnya setengah mati sis... ampuuuunn.. sampe susah makan banget
Hani: nyengir aja susah
inggani: Hehehe aaMiN
inggani: Hahaha..

AFTER ALL (Al Jarreau)

There, there was a time I knew
That no matter, come what may, love
would prevail
And then inside the dreams I knew
Came the question lovers fear
Can true love fail
Then I would miss the childhood wish
And haven't I sung to you
Of the knight in armor bright
Faithful and true to you

Darling, after all
I will be the one to hold you in my arms
After all
I will be the one to hold you
I will be the one to hold you in my arms
In my arms

I know in my heart and mind
That no matter, come what may, love will survive
And love, the author of space and time
Keeps the galaxies and each sparrow alive
And the love that heals the wound
After the war is through
Is the knight in armor bright
Faithful and true to you

jude = hani

Hey jude, don’t make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.

Hey jude, don’t be afraid.
You were made to go out and get her.
The minute you let her under your skin,
Then you begin to make it better.

And anytime you feel the pain, hey jude, refrain,
Don’t carry the world upon your shoulders.
For well you know that it’s a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder.

Hey jude, don’t let me down.
You have found her, now go and get her.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.

So let it out and let it in, hey jude, begin,
You’re waiting for someone to perform with.
And don’t you know that it’s just you, hey jude, you’ll do,
The movement you need is on your shoulder.

Hey jude, don’t make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her under your skin,
Then you’ll begin to make it
Better better better better better better, oh.

Na na na na na ,na na na, hey jude..

bad day

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

(Daniel Powter) *siapanya Harry Potter neh?*

ancer-ancer bulan

sepertinya Mei 2007.
berarti saya udah 29 ya... hmmm... ga apa2lah meleset sedikit daripada ngga sama sekali hehe...
kok gue kawin bulan Mei lagi yaaaa???

should i or should i not?

topik hangat yang lagi sering diomongin orang2 deket gue adalah isu longing dan kehampaan yang menyertainya. mbak Tari ngsms berkali2 cerita ttg longing ini. mas Dodi posting di LuL. gue dan si Tante termehe2 ngebahasnya karena kita ngerasain itu banget. pertanyaan: wajarkah? secara kita *ngakunya* udah tercerahkan dan tau apa yang sebenernya kita cari, bahkan udah ketemu. kok masih nyari sesuatu yg fisikal?

barusan di kamar mandi gue mulai merangkai potongan2 jawabannya. kita diciptakan sebagai manusia, mahluk fisik, spirit trapped in a body (thanks to mbak Herni contekannya). the ultimate longing feeling is truly for Him/Her/Whatever-It-Is-You-Call. then once we found Him (karena gue perempuan kali ya jadi gue prefer nyebut dia Him :D), are we really sure we don't need anything else? mmm... need is a strong word ya. i mean, are we sure we can live by our own selves, alone, all by ourselves? kan kita masih hidup di dunia materi. kita dilengkapi dengan semua tools yg dibutuhkan mahluk materi. kalo bukan untuk dimanfaatkan sesuai fungsi masing2, buat apa Tuhan ngasi tools itu ke kita?

salah satu yang ekstrim mungkin keinginan seksual. rasanya paradoks ya, naluri ini ada karena Tuhan yang kasih tapi kadang2 digambarkan bahwa hubungan seksual itu sesuatu yg kotor, salah, dosa, tabu. kalo dilakukan oleh 2 orang yg ga berhak melakukan memang seks itu jatuh ke posisi negatif tadi. tapi saat dilakukan sepasang suami-istri dengan penuh kasih sayang dan kesadaran, pindah tempat ke posisi positif tertinggi. malah bisa jadi media bertemu Tuhan. believe it or not.

kita dijadiin manusia untuk ngerasain berbagai macam rasa melalui perjalanan sehari2 kita, termasuk perasaan longing ini. gue percaya banyak yang ngalamin perasaan ini juga sekarang, right at this moment. mungkin aja salah satu dari mereka ternyata orang yang gue tunggu...

day 1: mules-mules

normal kan? :D
tadi malem Dee bilang sesuatu yang kena banget di gue. "saya pikir saya jatuh cinta sama dia. ternyata setelah saya jujur dan bersikap dewasa pada diri saya sendiri, saya jatuh cinta pada perasaan jatuh cinta itu." wew!
gue banget nih yang kayak begini. mas Dodi juga pernah nyentil gue kayak gitu. waktu itu sih guenya denial. sekarang... hehehe... emang! kesiaaaann deh...
yah terima sajalah. gue suka pada perasaan waktu gue bareng dia, gue kangen sama perasaan kangen waktu gue inget dia. mungkin gue harus cari orang yang waktu sama dia gue ga ngerasain apa2 ya. so the feeling is real (what is REAL anyways), bukan bayang2 dari rasa lain yang tumpang tindih. memurnikan niat, intinya mah ya...

all you need is Love..

buletin papan

kemaren pulang kantor kemana?

ke DS. si Tante dan Raiyan nunggu gue di sana. tapi gue mampir ke tempat Ing dulu hehe...

terus kemana?

ke Omah Sendok. tadinya mo ke Thaha tapi masih sepi jadi gue ikut ke Omah. (turned out Bapak tadi malam datang tapi ga ngajar)

ngapain kesana?

ada bedah film Ketika. pembahasnya pak Deddy Mizwar (sutradara), Nova Riyanti Yusuf (novelis), dan Ekky Imanjaya (pengamat film). Filmnya bagus euy...

sama siapa aja kesananya?

Tante dan Raiyan. di sana ketemu mbak Imbi dan suami, mas Dodi, mbak Rini, mas Nungki, Dewi, Fuad, mas Erwin, mas Eddy, mbak Ely, mas Eddy KKAS, mbak Anne, Sidik, Heru, Taufik, Tasi, rame deh.. ada Erick juga! hahahahahaha... maap sektoral :D

acaranya sampe jamber?

jam 22 udah selesai terus foto2 dulu hihi. selesai foto2 pindah ke dalam karena temen Raiyan ada yg mau nyusul.
setelah temennya nyampe kita malah ngobrol2 lebih seru lagi. Raiyan pengen bikin Klub Story Telling. dari sinilah obrolan berkembang. sampai jam... 00 :D

apa yang paling menarik dari acara itu?

relief Sang Buddha di Omah Sendok. gue meratiin tanpa ngerti what's so special about that statue. waktu kita mo pulang mas Eddy nyalain lampu di bawahnya dan talaaa... ketauan betapa kerennya relief itu. gila gila gila... KEREN!

Yellow Submarine

In the town where I was born
lived a man who sailed to sea
And he told us of his life
In the land of submarines
So we sailed up to the sun
Till we found a sea of green
and we lived beneath the waves
In our yellow submarine
We all live in a yellow submarine
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine
We all live is a yellow submarine
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine
And our friends are all aboard
Many more of them live next door
And the band begins to play
We all live in a yellow submarine
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine
We all live is a yellow submarine
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine
(Full speed ahead Mr. Boatswain, full speed ahead
Full speed ahead it is, Sgt. Cut the cable, drop the cable
Aye, sir, aye Captain, captain)
As we live a life of ease
Everyone one of us has all we need
Sky of blue and sea of green
In our yellow submarine
We all live in a yellow submarine
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine
We all live is a yellow submarine
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine
We all live in a yellow submarine
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine
We all live is a yellow submarine
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine

being organic

gue lagi haid tapi rasanya kayak hamil. perut begah-besar-bundar-buncit. malu saya ngeliatnya. kalo lagi sakit gue usap2 kayak ngusap2 Anti waktu dia masih di dalam perut, hihi.

You are my Everything

cruising when then sun goes down
cross the sea searching for something inside of me
i would find all the lost pieces
heart will feel
deep in real
i was blinded but now i see
you're the one
you're the one
you're the one
i can't live without you

take me to your place where our hearts belong together
i will follow you cos you're the reason that i breathe
i'll come running to you
fill me with your love forever
i promise you one thing
that i will never let you go
cos you are my everything

(Glenn Fredly - OST Cinta Silver)

HOME

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be allright
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

(Michael Buble)

something to think about

Seorang teman, perempuan, curhat gila2an di Food Court Plaza Semanggi tadi malam. Topik: boss, pekerjaan dan kantor yang menyebalkan. Dari ceritanya yang panjang gue menyimpulkan (tapi gue belom bilang ke dia) hal2 yang bikin dia kesel dan sebel sama boss dan kantornya adalah ketidakpuasan atas kurangnya penghargaan dari boss atas kerja (keras)nya.

Dia cerita suatu hari dia disuruh lembur sama si boss, kita sebut boss Payah, karena proyek itu mau kejar tayang dalam 2 hari. Padahal kalo si boss bisa mengefektifkan waktunya (kasarnya sih manajemen waktunya ga bagus), order kerjaan itu udah bisa turun ke dia sejak 1 minggu sebelumnya. Bayangin, SATU MINGGU, 5 hari kerja. Paling ngga dia ga perlu lembur dan besoknya tegang seharian karena langsung Sang Klien (gue pake huruf besar karena kadang2 klien jadi tuhan buat boss2) yg ngereview kerjaannya tanpa supervisi dan koreksi dari boss. Padahal si boss bilang sebelum temen gue itu pulang ngelembur, kerjaannya akan dicek malam itu juga. (Besoknya waktu dia tanya udah dicek ato belum, bossnya cuma ngejawab sambil lalu, “Lupa,” as if that project is worth nothing at all.)

Hal kedua yang bikin dia kesel adalah omongan si boss waktu gajian akhir bulan lalu. Kantor temen gue itu gajian di hari terakhir tiap bulan. (Istilahnya Nugi, kalo ada tanggal 70 ya gajiannya tanggal 70.) Gajian TIDAK DIDASARKAN pada proyek yang dikerjakan. Eh tau2 si boss ngomong lewat salah satu anak buahnya yg loyal ke dia (temen gue ini ngaku kalo dia ga loyal2 amat sama perusahaan/bossnya hehe), “Kalian mestinya gajian besok (aka tgl 1) karena kerjaan kalian belum beres!”
HEH!!!??? Dengan sengitnya temen gue nanya ke temennya, “Oh jadi ada aturan baru nih kita gajian berdasarkan proyek? Ada komisi juga dong!”
Temennya cuman

Hal ketiga, dia selalu disalahin sama boss yg satu lagi karena kerjaannya lewat jatuh tempo. Salah satunya gara2 proyek yang ga dicek lagi itu. Seharusnya hari itu dia ngerjain proyek lain. Tapi karena si boss lupa/alpa/khilaf/ga bisa ngatur waktu, semua kerjaan hari itu dipending dan diswitch ke proyek-kejar-tayang-dalam-2-hari itu. Eh boss atunya lagi, kita sebut aja dia boss Rese, nuntut pertanggungjawaban, “Ini udah due date kok belom kamu ngerjain? Emang kamu ngerjain apa?”
“Proyek-kejar-tayang-dalam-2-hari.”
“Yang mana sih? Emang ada? Mana requestnya?”
*DAMN!!!* dalam hati tentunya. “Ya udah dibalikin dong pak, kan udah selesai. Kalo ga percaya tanya aja ke si Payah. Tapi tetep aja saya salah ya, kan saya cuma anak buah!” temen gue jadi ketus ngomongnya. Sementara si Rese ga komentar apa2 lagi langsung cabut balik ke ruangannya. Besoknya dia -si Rese maksudnya- masih ngomongin hal yang sama, tetep sambil nyureng. Gue juga pasti emosi jiwa punya dua boss gebleg kayak gitu.

Sekarang temen gue itu lagi muak2nya sama kantor. Dia milih diem, menutup diri dari temen2 kantornya. Emang dasarnya dia juga ga suka gaul sama temen kantornya karena merasa itu hanya ngerusak privacy. (EMBER!)

Bukannya ga bersyukur masih punya pekerjaan, bahkan kerjaan yang dia sukain banget. Dia cuma ngarepin bosses itu ngertilah sama perasaan anak buah. Jangan seenaknya aja mentang2 boss, nyuruh anak buah lembur tapi kayak gitu. Yang bikin dia lebih empet lagi, kerjaan itu sebenernya bisa dibawa pulang. Apalagi akhirnya toh ga dicek juga. Mending dia pulang, kerjain di rumah, besoknya kasi ke boss. Tapi ntahlah.. I don’t know what’s going on in those minds of busy bosses. And I don’t know what they’re so busy thinking/doing anyways.

Gimana kalian para boss, ada tanggapan?

be(very)late(d)

Neng Ryane ulang tawuuun..
(dan saya terlambat memberi ucapan selamat). MAAF YAA.. Secara saya
males login prenster lg sekarang2 ini hehe *lame excuse*  
Sebenernya bbrp hari sebelum dia ultah saya sudah ngeh dia akan ultah.
Pas harinya lupa :D

Hari ini saya berjuang 6 jam, dr jam 8 sampe 14an. Wah kayak cerita
persalinan yak :P
Dibius 3x: 2x di luar, 1x di dalam. Jadi baal dan ngerasa dower hiks.
Iyeee gue ke dokter gigiiii..
Dibius 2x karena mulai senut2 lg waktu Diyas bersihin saluran akar
gigi 5 gue. Bolongnya gede bow ternyata.. Serem ngeliatnya. Lama2 jd
puyeng, kliyengan... nyut2an. Terusss sampe sekarang. Tadi jam 6 gue
ga tahan jadi tidur aja sampe jam 8. Alhamdulillah sekarang mendingan.
Normal ga ya kalo jadi ngantuk terus? Normal, secara gue pengantuk
hee..

--
keep shining! :)
-hani-

bebenah continues...

1. Beres2 GIGI dengan cara ke RSGM UI.
2. Beres2 OTOT dengan cara diurut pak Daim secara teratur tiap 3 hari sekali sampai otot dan aliran darah gue lancar lagi.
3. Beres2 KAMAR :D
4. Mengembalikan barang2 titipan teman2ku kepada pemiliknya. Alhamdulillah barang2 Febby udah balik semua. Printer Keke juga. Tinggal tas dan handuk kecil seseorang (yang rasanya pengen gue buang aja kalo dia nolak terus ketemu gue).

wataw!!

Otw pulang dr Pasaraya ketemu mobil Bandung mulu. D 111 MS dan D 333
LT. DIAM dan DELETE. Siangnya si Tante liat H 7777 MD. Hani Minta Duit
katanya :)) buat gw Hani Mesti Diam hihi.

Di Pasaraya kita foto2 di foto box. Eh ada no M3 bagus: 08 1111 777
011*. 15 ribu saja! Belilah saya hehe. Lengkap sudah M3 ku, ada 111
(08 1111 111 x77*) dan 777. HOREEE..

Terus tadi lg dengerin lagu Bapak, gue lirik jam. Tadaa... 11:11 :D

Sekarang chapter Yusuf gue dimulai. Yusuf ex McDermott tea mo kasi
proyek web perusahaan EKSPEDISI yg punya anak perusahaan TRAVEL &
TICKETING. Mantap! Gue banget pokokna. Ada hubungannya sama Renny dan
bokap sepertinya.

OOW..
Inget kan kemarin Senin ngerjain web EZ GETAWAY? Hayah.. udah banyak
cluenya kok gue masih belom JALAN-JALAN jg biar fresh???

* nomor disamarkan demi kebaikan diriku sendiri :P

--
keep shining! :)
-hani-

getting out of someone's way

Overjoyed

Over time, I've building my castle of love
Just for two, though you never knew you were my reason
I've gone much too far for you now to say
That I've got to throw my castle away

Over dreams, I have picked out a perfect come true
Though you never knew it was of you I've been dreaming
The sandman has come from too far away
For you to say come back some other day

And though you don't believe that they do
They do come true
For did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me

Over hearts, I have painfully turned every stone
Just to find, I had found what I've searched to discover
I've come much too far for me now to find
The love that I've sought can never be mine

And though you don't believe that they do
They do come true
For did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me

And though the odds say improbable
What do they know
For in romance
All true love needs is a chance
And maybe with a chance you will find
You too like I
Overjoyed, over loved, over you, over you

(Stevie Wonder)

njarem continues...

tadi malem diurutin pak Daim sampe hampir nangis. sambil diomelin juga kenapa ga ngomong dari kemaren2 kalo gue sakit.
"malu!"
"makan deh malunya. sakit kan lo.." digituin, hihi...
abis diurut rasanya lemes. berlanjut sampe pagi ini.
nanti Sabtu pagi insya Allah diurut lagi setelah ngurusin kue.