gosok terus sampe sembuh

mungkin kumiliki seluruh cintamu
kusadari semua itu anganku
kuingin katakan
hanyalah dirimu yang melukis warna mimpi hatiku

ingin kumiliki dengan sepenuh hati
walau ku harus setengah terluka mengharap cintamu
ingin kusayangi tanpa terbagi lagi
apakah mungkin menjalin kasih
bila aku tak tau bagaimana kau mencintai diriku..

(Ruth Sahanaya - Ingin Kumiliki)

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yeps... to me the only way getting thru a heartache is going thru it again and again and again. feel the pain over and over and over. till it fades out and i don't feel a thing :)
all songs in my playlist now got memories of him in it. i just gotta get thru this if i want to move on.

i'm sort of a masochist, aren't i? :D
don't worry... by January 10 this will all be over :) insya Allah!